Coming from a violent background it has been very difficult to change my way of thinking. When it comes to solving problems my immediate responce is to attack before I get hurt. Now that I'm older, realizing the wrongdoing in my actions is more evident to me. But trying to change them is the greatest challenge ever. Its been a rocky road trying to change my thinking prcoess and it will continue to be until I reach my ultimate goal. But I will continue to pursue it because I know it will be worth it, not only to me but the people that surround me.

I supervisor a group of youth and I talk to them about positive energy. Its a term many have heard of but consider to be a hippish way of life. They are aware of the benefits to society but have the same problems I am trying to overcome. Bad habits, from the cycle of violence many of us living in a poor community of color are born into. Thinking differently allows us to see the world in a different light. It even feels like living in a new world, even though everything still looks the same. I have learned to appreciate my surroundings a lot more and the people who surround me.

Happy thoughts equal happy times. If you say something positive to someone the percentage of a positive reaction then increases. Very logic lesson but one many decide not to take. I am very grateful for the RYSE Center and all the programs it offers for people who are born into poverty. I am starting to see my counsler every week again and it helps me out a lot. Just being in a building in my community with other like minded people is a gift. I sound all chessy but I am being sincere as well.

with much love and respect