This is my first time posting here. I don't know if this site will be a good support group or not, but i look forward to trying to use it and see if it works in my life to help me understand how to become emtionally healthy. I guess i have never thought of myself as a basketcase, but that is what my husband called me. I know he is right, i carry around so much guilt. My Gramma passed recently which didn't help. I never had a healthy relationship with my Mom. My younger years i didn't really notice any sort of abuse, maybe affection and attention but not abuse. After i became around ten she turned into another women, it was triggered after her father sexually abused me. She hated me afterwards, putting me down, telling me no one loved me or wanted me and told me to go find some where else to live. I moved out when i was 16, and had to work several jobs to just eat and dropped out of school. I went to the running start in college but it just didn't work out because i couldn't handle that, work, and my social life. It has been almost twenty years since then. I was married 12 years ago, my folks were struggling not knowing what to do next since Dad's his line of work seemed to go over seas. So my husband got involved with my Dad, and my Mom kept getting involved in sabatoging our work relationship so my husband and i decided to do something else. My Father worked in this trade for several years and made good money but then the economy went away. So i was blamed for his debt that wasn't paid off... which wouldn't be so bad in a good economy. But then my Father had a heart attack, and with that debt and the medical bills, i carry a great weight around all the time feeling depressed and sad that i can't help them more. I also have Celiac's disease so that doesn't help because my energy is low, and it's hard for me to keep my. My husband loves me and told me it is hard to live with me because i am a basketcase. I feel really sad about that, but i can't seem to get out of this state of mind. Any advice.